Blissfulsoul

i had this dream a couple of time.. it first started out dark and then i find myself in a dim tunnel... a tunnel that is long and broad... not so narrow path... then i saw a light and bight brownish light.. then with it i saw a great big door.. it was so tall... and it was so big... like red wood tree big... the door had gold trimmings and a really pretty gold design... the door nob was even decorative... linings for gold....vine like... without hesitation.. i opened the door.... when i got in..... (continue reading)

WHY DO I FEEL SO USELESS? WHY DO I FEEL SO EMPTY? I CAN'T DO ANYTHING BUT CRY ITS LIKE MY HEART IS DYING IN PIECES THAT I CAN FEEL EACH PIECE WITH PAIN EVERY PIECE THAT IS BROKEN OFF I CAN TASTE EACH DROP OF MY BLOOD DRIPPING AWAY. THERE IS NOTHING LEFT FOR ME TO FEEL THE WAY I USE TO MY SPIRIT GROWS DARK TO ITS COMPACITY THAT I BECOME BLIND ITS IS LIKE I AM IN A LITTLE BOX AND I CAN'T MOVE I AM PLURALIZED. MY BODY GROWS STILL AND COLD THE WARMTH THAT I FELT BEFORE IS NOW GONE... (continue reading)

as my fate grows near. i tend to tremble in fear. my grows of life is at a melt down. as it gets closer and closer my heart starts to race, my mind is shifted to race of thoughts. as the hours, minutes, seconds ticks away everyday. as it ticks my soul goes darker and darker and my spirit dims in a speed of light. as i step onto the stone of my fate; i couldn't gasp for air. my heart just stopped beating, the thumpness that was made of life. i fell to my knees while starring into my fate. tears... (continue reading)