allinmyheart

Last nite I went to bed at 12:00a.m. I slept not for too long, I felt a man came into my room and he was on top of my bed near my feet. I got scared, I wasn't as frighten as I used to be...he didn't do no harm...he was just staring at me while i'm sleeping but when he got close up to me I screamed...during my screaming i heard my two cousin MaiYia and Kia having an conversation about going out...?? When I yelled for help he didn't cover my mouth instead he let me yell and he was really calmed. I screamed for about 20 mins or so until I was out of breath. I than decided to give up because i realized that he isn't going to go away I had a puppy that is my size, laid it next to me when I sleep. I turned my head, make eye contacted with my puppy and I say; 'help me'. Instead of helping me my puppy ears covered it's own eyes, he gave me a really lonely look it wasn't a scary look but a look saying that it's okay for me not to be afraid. I'm was confused...I thought ghost are afraid of dogs? I than determined to give up, so I said to the ghost man; 'okay I gave up, take me away I don't care anymore and do watever'. I was pissed because no matter how much I've yelled my cousins didn't care to come help me. I heard their foot steps back and forth on the hall way. *but it wasn't them, I realized that after i got up* Right after I say that to the ghost man there was a silent pause than I felt myself spinning I screamed again for awhile calmed myself down and listened to what was happening. I felt like i was in his arm, he was holding me in his arms like a father would do to his little girl he rocked me back and forth and at that very moment I just had a feeling that it's probably my dad. I was so close to open my mouth and ask him if he was my dad but I'm afraid what if he's not? He past away for 21 years now and I've never dream of him. I have no idea how he look like beside the picture that my mom gave me of him. I closed my eyes and listen. It felt very wonderful to be hold like a little girl. Never have this feeling before in my life, never know how it feel to be love by a father. I slept in his arm until I freak out again I screamed until I woke up, I grabbed my cell phone and it was 1:00a.m. I came up with my own conclusion that it's my dad. He came back to pay me a visit. A few days before I was praying for him, hoping, wishing upon the stars for a chance to be with him. I felt safe and scared at the same time. ..but this night I'll remember forever, it would be a story to tell my kids and grand kids. I love you father Tong Kou Yang, I can't promise anything but I will be the most wonderful person and do my best in life. I'll live for you and me...I will make this life worth it. I'm going to miss you alot and will love you until I take my last breath.

Yes it would be wonderful if out there somewhere is that one special person for each and everyone of us.

One that will stand tall next to you, show you through. Whether it's thick or thin, he will hold your hands forever.

One that is not ashamed telling his friends or others that you're his and how bless he is to have you as his.

One that will tell you that you're gorgeous even when you have no makeup on and when you wake up in the morning his warm smile is the first thing you see when you open up your eyes.

One will only have eye on you.

One will treasure you for who you are and kiss you softly on your lips.

One will somewhat stay home with you than go out and party with his friends.

One will never get exhaust of looking at you whether you're all sweaty or sparkling.

One will give his support instead of telling you that you won't make it on whatever that you're doing.

Loves ones come and go...nothing stay the same.

They appear in your life for a short of time, teach you a lesson, and leave you forever. It's up to you to make your mind up to learn it or let it go through one ear and out the other. Nobody is perfect I understand, but why we human being always want what we can't have. Why we so selfish, why can we just accept what god is given us. Again yes it would be nice to meet that one special person. We only live once not twice. I don't believe in the after life, I'm not waiting to see if it's going to happen to me in the next life. It's all about this life, the life that I'm living in.