melskaya

I rejoice in the Awakening of the Buddhas. And also, in the spiritual levels of their Sons. With folded hands, I beseech the Buddhas of all directions. To shine the lamp of Dharma for all bewildered in the gloom of misery With folded hands, I beseech all the Buddhas Who wish to pass away, To please remain for countless eons And not to leave the world in darkness My foes will become nothing. My friends will become nothing. I, too, will become nothing. Likewise, all will become nothing... (continue reading)

Recently, as I was putting away my groceries and washing my produce I looked out the window. I realized that I'm not happy and that my life will never be more than it is right now if I don't make a major change in my life (like maybe moving to another state). I'm invisible here both personally and professionally.

What do I do? I can suck it up and just stay or I can stick up for myself, tell my boss about how trust has been blown, and move on. This job was presented one way and has... (continue reading)

So last Friday I did this thing. Some of you may not agree with it and may have very strong feelings about it but this is my blog and my life. This month has been really stressful for me. I suffered a lot of loss and feelings of abandonment. Life hasn't improved. I have less than a month to find a new job, I have enough money to cover my next mortgage payment and that's it. It was all feeling like too much. Most people get to experience life changes all spread out. Mine cluster over a few... (continue reading)