(02/25/2007, 8:27 PM) I just realized that I've been on a hunt for
the highest level of satisfaction in everything I do, along with
insanely high expectations of myself. I am constantly harassing
myself to elicit the best of me to accomplish tasks I'm not capable
of. I will never be pleased with anything I do with the pressure of
having to reach unreachable standards. On the other hand, I suppose
life would be more enjoyable if I didn't set such high criteria to
restrain myself from being satisfied. Just relishing the simplicity
and stress-free lifestyle would at least allow me SOME contentment.
Correct?
(02/13/2007, 8:15 PM) Supposedly, St. Valentine's Day is the one
day for couples to show their affections to one another. But what I
don't understand is why need a commercialized and exaggerated
holiday to show that affection, care, and love? If truly in love,
there shouldn't be any specialized day to reveal these sentiments.
As long as still in each other's company, everyday would be a
'Happy Valentine's Day'.
(02/04/2007, 1:21 AM) Some time ago, someone who had once played a
very important role in my life had done me wrong. For many nights I
had dreamt of him coming back to me and to live the perfect life I
had fantasized of us. Surprisingly, he did. He came back to me and
had deeply apologized for what he had done. He had begged for
forgiveness and asked for another chance. He said everything I
thought I would never hear. However, my answer to him was 'No'. If
I knew someone who can hurt me in such way, should I really give
him another chance to do so? If I knew things aren't going to work
out, why waste his and my time? If I knew he wasn't right for me,
why not just wait until someone who is? Many would jump into that
dream and believe everything will be 'happlily ever after'. But
what is the opportunity cost of that act of impulsiveness? Point
being, don't let 'dreams' bedazzle greater things from happening.
P.S...Sometimes a 'sorry' is acceptable. Unfortunately, such a
simple word can't undo all damages. Forgiveness can easily be given
out though forgetting is harder than it looks.
(1/22/07, 12:27 AM) I am walking down a path and had came to a
split. My vision had never been blurrier for I am blinded by
uncertainty, indecisiveness, and confusion for where to go, who to
be, and what to do. Supposedly, it's okay if I walked the wrong way
since I can always turn back and try the other route. But what if I
went farther than I should? With the clock ticking away seconds
nonstop, would I make it back in time? If there is no time
restriction, I would love to walk down every path that comes my way
to see what destiny awaits me. For the experience, adventure, and
knowledge. To see all that is unfamaliar. Do all there is to try.
Learn all the unknowns. Inestimable odyssey.
