retiredby19

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I've come to realize that life has it's ups and it's downs. I've also come to realize that your best friends that MAY have been your best friends, once you lose that connection and that contact that you've built so long... once you lose that connection... that relationship is no longer. Same applies to family, co-workers, peers, etc. I guess joining the military was my own choice, but ever since I've been back from a full 15 month tour in Iraq, I've realized that I have separated myself from the people that were closest to me. You win some and you definitely lose some. I have won experience, a stronger mentality, and a stronger bond with those that I went into combat with. I have lost my closest friends, that bond, that connection with my family members and now, it seems like I do not care to get that back. I have CHANGED in the course of 2 months coming back from a state of war. I am not who I WAS. I have become stronger, and the things I do now are very different from what I did before. I have very high ambition, and I strive for what I want.

As my closest friends NOW... they know i would do anything for them, and they for me. I feel as if i secluded myself from the people that don't matter and make them non-existent. As for the relationship part of my life... I believe that I do not NEED a girlfriend, maybe I WANT a girlfriend, because I feel like that MAY cover up that emptiness and loneliness part of my life. But to say that would be a very insecure statement, and come off as being desperate. That I am not. Having someone around of the opposite gender is nice once in a while. But i definitely do not NEED a girlfriend at the moment. I am looking to the sky and looking toward my ambition right now, and to do ME. I don't need to waste my time and effort into something that will crash so quick and so fast that it feels like it was just a dream. I realize that me being in the military effects everything. But I protect people and I save people's lives. I guess it used to mean something, but maybe not anymore.

Anyways, I live in New York, so Canada is right next door. Lol. I'm usually there every week. It's bad when I walk the streets of Kingston, and my name is being yelled when I walk by. If you live in Kingston, ON, then you might have seen me and my boyz at the club. Anyways, hit me up. I'm chill, laid back, down for pretty much anything.