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'Cause I don't need your mess, I'll keep you one disaster less...

Posted October 14th, 2008 at 11:45pm

My sister introduced me to this song.
She told me to really listen to it.
To its melody and especially its lyrics.
Go figure.
(Track #2 on my main page song list)
(Track #1 is basically who I am)

Don't think too hard, if you think it hurts that bad.
Don't talk about it, don't let it get you down.
It's only one part, of the story.
Just let it go, don't let it bring you down, now.

Sing the last thing on your mind,
The last word on your breath.
I'll be the one to keep you,
I'll keep you at your best.
The last thing on your mind,
'Cause I don't need your mess.
I'll be the one to keep you,
One disaster less.

Straighten up your tie, take the microphone.
Forget about it, don't let it get you down.
Now is not the time, and you're not alone.
Shut up about it, no one can bring you down now.

Sing the last thing on your mind,
The last word on your breath.
I'll be the one to keep you,
I'll keep you at your best.
The last thing on your mind,
'Cause I don't need your mess.
I'll be the one to keep you,
One disaster less.

I'll be okay.

I'll be okay, if you'll sing...

The last thing on your mind,
The last word on your breath.
I'll be the one to keep you,
I'll keep you at your best.
The last thing on your mind,
'Cause I don't need your mess.
I'll be the one to keep you,
One disaster less.

The last thing on your mind,
The last word on your breath.
I'll be the one to keep you,
I'll keep you at your best.
The last thing on your mind,
'Cause I don't need your mess.
I'll be the one to keep you,
One disaster less.

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Everything Will Be Fine

Posted October 12th, 2008 at 05:40pm

I miss him.
I am really missing.
Wasn't sure what is one suppose to do when
one aches for another person this much.
The thought "if's" comes to mind.
"IF only I had..." "IF only I did..." "IF ONLY"
Wishing to turn back time.
Praying that time will stop so that
I wouldn't feel the pain anymore.
And yet, in a weird way, I'm glad he's not around.
I'm glad he's not around to see me this way.
I just want the comfort, the security, the promise
that everything will be fine.
Be that little girl again where I could crawl up to
his lap and have him hold me and tell me that he will
always love me and that I will always
be his beautiful little girl no matter what.
Now all I have is a beautifully engraved headstone.
That has the words "beloved husband and father" on it.
Standing in front of a blanket of grass. A blanket of grass
that I tend to lay on about once every 4 months. Where I
would cry until I cannot cry anymore. Where I would fall
asleep even with the rain pouring down on me. Even when
the wind try to blow me away. Even when the sun is at
it's highest piercing it's heat down through out my body.
A beautiful engraved headstone is all I have left.
Yet, I have no regrets. I don't think he would want that.
I'm not broken, I'm not weak, he never accepted anything less.
He never accepted and have no appreciation for weakness.
I think I've rambled too much already.