trulylookin05's Blog

Okay, so I'm on a deadline for this new magazine that I'm attemtping to write for, and the experience is interesting to say the least. I've got to do a set of three articles for the mag about up and coming talent in my city.

But I want to do more

I want to be able to go out and find artists and songwriters, etc to bring to the magazine, conduct interviews for or write pieces on and then publish them. I'm always such a far-reaching soul with bigger goals than most people realize.

Writing is my life, my passion and something that I want to be well-known and famous for. I don't just want to be some nameless person, wandering around without a clue as to where I'm going or where I want to end up in the next ten years.

Gosh, I haven't been to this site in AGES! Lol!

It's been a while and there are so many changes going on in my life and so many different things that have happened.

My goodness, if only you knew! Anyway, I shall leave you all with a message of inspiration:

If someone shows you who they are...believe them. --Maya Angelou

What's up with Kanye West ruining the VMAs? Seriously, brah? Get it together.

Wow, hey!!! I haven't been on this site in a good minute! Jeez, so much has happened since I was here and checking up on people and talking to the folks that are friends and associates! Boy! Well, I'm at work currently so I can't really talk too much, but I'll check ya later, and we'll catch up! BAI!!!!

MEANINGLESS CHATS By Erica D.

Wait for the lonely midnights,
Wait for those kind of
Meaningless chats;
You know the ones:
Those chats that tell the truth,
But
Under the light of day
Have no bearing.
You reveal truth
At midnight,
You reveal
The Inner Self.

Under the bobbing lights
Of firefly, fairy lights.
Unassuming;
Disinterested in the
Affairs of men.
Mouths part,
Eyes sparkle
Maybe I wouldn't have told you:
"I like girls with clit-rings."
"I like riding guys on top."
"I'm a kink, not a freak; there's a difference." Passing that
Black & Mild;
Don't f[uck up the flow.

Okay, so...my adventure last night? Totally trippy....well, not so much....well, except when my pal Shari tried to scare the hell out of me, but yeah...ANYWAY!!!! So, yesterday I get it into my head that it's a great idea to travel with my friend Shari to her home in Kensington, GA, and that's about a three-hour drive, give or take, from Atlanta so that she could get some cash for herself from her mom (aren't Moms swell? Just peachy!) Anyway, we're up there for a hellah long time because we have to chase he mother down ALL the way from LaFayette to Kensington to Chattanooga and then back, and it tooks us...oh, say until 4a.m. in the morning (4:27 a.m. to be exact) to get back here and then have me wake up at...the %#&@$! crack of dawn to get to work...have I mentioned I hate waking up early?

Anyway, the highlight of the entire trip, I must say, was not the panic that we faced when we realized if we could not find her mother then we'd have no gas to get home (:*-(...), but was instead the stars. There were HUNDREDS of them...and I mean HUNDREDS and you could see the arc of the Milky Way in the northern portion of the sky, and everything was just so dark and quiet, nothing moving...no sounds of a distant city, no sounds of cars moving along a highway, just nothing but stillness and stars. And can I just stress this one more time: STARS!!!!!!! It was awesome...I love it...I'm gonna go back.

Oh yeah and the escapades with my car....I'm going to murder it and hide its body in a car junkyard....I'm not kidding! I've got to replace the ENTIRE engine. WTF?! THE ENTIRE ENGINE?! It makes me get a little choked up; honestly, I might even shed a tear. So, I'm stuck on the bus until I can get in contact with le Bank of Dad to help me out by going in half with me to fix the damn thing and get her going. Not that I don't mind being on the bus...I like having the ability of reading my books and what not, but I kind of want to shy away from the whole 'I'm-Clearly-As-Old-As-Abraham-Lincoln-But-I'm-Going-To-Hit-On-You-Anyway' type guys. Seriously? Ah....no.

And so, that is my update! Adieu! Ciao! Guten Abend!

Okay, so I'm on AA just randomly browsing the profiles of members who are currently online and those that are new, just checking out people's pages just to see who's who and whether or not I can, of course, expand my experiences on this site and, I won't lie, checking out some of the cute looking guys on this site (what am I? A NUN!!! *glares*). And as I'm looking through various profiles I see a number of gentlemen that more than surpass the Hollywood-USA definition of beauty, and it just angers me a touch because the definition of what is pretty, gorgeous, etc in this country is so bass ackward that it's ridiculous!
How can Hollywood decide that the Causcasian golden boy with the blond hair and blue eyes (or this male's counterpart, the Playboy Bunny Queen) are the only definitions of what can be considered an aesthetic that should appeal to the masses? And while I know this issue has been played up many times on blogs across the world, I only make note of it because a lot of times I can see a problem, but it won't really HIT me until some random time period when I am unawares. Either way, I see some of the men on this site and it gets me that all through out Hollywood you only see them in roles that aren't nearly as flattering as they SHOULD be. And it's true, most people on see either the 'ass-kicking-Bruce Lee-Jackie Chan-Jet Li-morphed-brainchild' or the 'goofy-too-socially-awkward-nerd' that can't even be bothered to be approached. And this type of stereotype goes for all races: black people are either thugs or...well...thugs; Indians and their ilk are either owning 7-11s or making sandwiches or something (it's well-known in the South around where I live); and Native Americans...barely even in existence.
It's irritating to say the least, and even in some of my favorite TV shows, where the cast is praised for being progressive for having so many minorities, the aesthetic is still in Caucasian favor. Let's take HEROES for example. While the character Hiro is making waves for being a popular Asian that many fans know and love being shown in the media, he's still the geeky, science nerd that Americans in the US have come to associate with the Asian culture (and the only time in the show that mold was broken was when he was badass-Hiro-from-the-future-five-years-from-now). Most of the white cast members are shown in a more favorable light: Peter Petrelli (has all the kick-ass-superpowers of EVERYONE), his brother Nathan (superpowered Senator on his way to the White House (well, if he isn't DEAD)). Even frackin Matt Parkman...! The character of D.L. Hawkins was still cast as a 'thug-type', and even though he was given a more favorable occupation in an episode of the Second Season, he was killed off before there was even much to go on with that. Let's also look at Monica Dawson and how she's barely even BEEN in the show at all, and does her storyline even match up to the other characters ALL the way in New Orleans? Who knows?
I'm just saying that while progress is happening, it's happening way too slowly and that by the time I'm 85, there'll FINALLY be some noticeable changes, and by then it won't matter unless science can come up with the ability to reverse aging (and at the rate we're going, I very much so doubt it).
And what's worse (because another thought just occured to me) is that these media stereotypes negatively affect other populations as well. That other races have negative views of the other because of what's being shown to them and mass produced by a majority run media machine (I could go into a conspiracy theory about it, but I'll save that for another time).
I'm not knocking the Caucasian race; after all, if I did so I'd be knocking the Germans, Scots and Caucasian-Jews that came together in my father that thus came to exist in me. So, I can't get all up in arms against one of my own peoples, but I can rant about how it's is unfair to the other side of my gene pool. I mean, I have fiery Latina blood, fierce African blood and proud Native American blood running through me and they want to be heard too!
/rant

Hey, it's raining here!...Again, but I'm going to be having myself a blast in the next couple of hours because I am going to...*dramatic puse*....the MASQUERADE!!! I usually don't go out except on Thursday nights because I'm working the rest of the week (and I'm actually more of a homebody than I like to admit), but I haven't been to the Masquerade in years and tonight is eighties' night. Not that I'm going to be breaking out any eighties' duds. I was what--three by the time the eighties were over, so I can't really claim that era. If they had a nineties night, then I'd be all over that!
But whatever, it gets me out of the house and into the world. Not that I don't like working or making money because I do. I really do. I'm going to become a lawyer one day, and I got to get all my experience now to kick serious @55 in the Criminal Justice field. Seriously, I'm going to be one of those high-powered attorneys because I'd be so darned good!
Speaking of which, I've got about 1 hour and 28 minutes until I get off work, so let me go cram so more stuff in before I leave.
!Adios!

Okay, so ich wolle im Deutsch mein Tag schrieben weil ich bin Gelangweilt, und ich kann auf Deustch schrieben und sprechen. Obwohl, duerfte ich meine Wortunterbringung falsch erhalten. Klar, ist mein Deutsch ,,wiggy". Mein Tag ist sehr langsam weil meine Cheferin ist im Urlaub (ich denke das Wort ist Chererin, auf Englisch sie ist ,,my boss (female)") und ich habe keine Arbeit zu machen. UND meine Nacht gestern Abend...Ich fuehle ,,wiggy" darum auch aber vielleicht ist es nur mich. Ich hasse ist geboren mit einem Mond in Steinbock. Astrologie fuer Sie Leute, die nicht wissen, was ich sage. Nicht, dass irgendein von Ihnen sowieso machen, waehrend ich auf Deutsch schreibe. HA!
Okay, okay, ich bin fertig. Lassen Sie mich zurueck werden, zu arbeiten. *Seufzer*
Okay, so my german is rusty and because this site doesn't seem to like certain characters, I've had to fill in those characters with the default german spellings...Althought, I could wrong....hmmmm
*prances off*

Okay, so it's beginning to get stormy over here in Ga. I'm seriously wondering where all this rain is coming from. Not that we don't need it, but there just seems to be so much. The day time will reach temperatures of 90 - 98 degrees outside (dear god, I've got to put covers on the leather seats of my car), but at night the rain clouds come pouring in and we get a downpour just about every evening. Then you wake up and the air is hot and muggy as hell. Gyah! I'm currently stuck at the office doing invoices for the boss while she's away on vacation; it's actually pretty good that she's off on vacation because it gets annoying having her in the office sometimes because there's only one office computer and she uses it for everything. So, when I try to get paperwork done, she wants to get on to check her e-mails from her other lawyer-y friends. And then gets irritated when I don't have certain things done. Um....yeah.... Anyway, I just wanted to do an update to my hum-drum day. Adieu!