Littlelady81's Blog

Oh yeah!! Today I will have some toast, eggs and ham. But the breakfast won't be complete without the honey. When I am feeling ill, most of the time I would get a cup of tea with lemon, and a little bit of honey.. When I am with my darling, and licking him from head to toe, I like to put a little honey on his fingers just so I can get a taste of two things in my life that I like so much!! Oh honey.. You make my life so much sweeter. I don't think I will ever get enough..

Just Because I don't call you 24/7 doesn't mean that I don't think about you 24/7.

Just because there may be times when I will not show emotions doesn't mean that I don't care. Sometimes it is hard for me to express my feelings.

When you leave me or when I have to go, I am screaming inside because I really hate it when we are apart.

Just because I don't chase you like a love sick puppy doesn't mean that I don't want to. I am just so proud and afraid to show my feelings.

Yumm Yummm!

Oh (HL) you so yummy, you so tasty When you leave me you make me want more!! Aaah! come back here, you are like the snickers that satisfies me all the time!! Ohh you so yummy please don't tease me, I cant take it anymore!!

You Drive me crazy..

Why show emotions!? That is weak, I have to be strong.. Why do I have to tell you that I love you? Are you crazy?! I have to be strong...What? are you leaving? FINE, LEAVE.. I'm not going to chase you, that's absurd. I have to be strong.. Now I am alone.. Should I call my friend and tell him how I feel?? NO WAY!! Are you kidding me!!?

I have to be strong...

Tonight I am happy because I got the chance to be in your arms.

Tonight I got the chance to feel how warm you are.

Tonight I felt the softness of your kiss.

Tonight you have made me feel weak and that scares me....

Tonight I am in awe of how you make me feel.

You take my breath away and I hope this isn't a dream. I hope it is real.

Me:

Damn.. I have gotten rid of you, been at peace for almost five years.. Without you I have learned to love and appreciate ME(Myself). The self hate gone, the doubt and grief all gone but at what cost?? Is it worth being alone and looked at as an outcast. Because that's what it is really like to be CP and sometimes I wish I had you back here with me.

Alter Ego:

HAH! Look at you... How pathetic.. I knew that this day would come. The day when you will miss me and regret casting me aside.. Foolish girl, haven't you realized that being yourself will get you nowhere. You are sad and in denial... It is ok my friend. Just let me out!! Let me show you how to live... Remember you are weak alone and hollow without me.. I make you whole. NOW LET ME OUT and I will help you... Help you to stop being such a PUNK BITCH......

ME:

I am not a punk Shrona. When I had you around, when I let you out, you did not want to share the power. You took over everything. You broke hearts and was just plain mean to people in a direct and indirect way. This is not how it should be.

Alter Ego:

FUCK THEM!!! Do you really think that those guys gave a flying damn??!! HAH HAH, Foolish girl. Those creeps had it comming.. Aww come on CP Did they have a heart really?? Just think of them all as superficial fools that are there to be taken advantage of.... This is a dog eat dog world my friend....LET ME OUT!!!! You are a smart woman but you ain't shit without me... They will always see you as soft and will shit on you every chance they get.. Just let me out bitch and let SS show you how the game is played... You are unhappy... I know you are.. Let me help you put a smile back on your face!

 Me:

 I just don't know anymore. I try so hard to do things the right way and be honest with myself and others but it just doesn't help. It seems like things have gotten worse each year when you were gone. Guys treated me like crap, cheated on me, lied and or just made me feel worthless. I am getting tired...

{CP Walked up to the cage. The place where Shrona Star has been locked away for five years, Uhitched the lock and opened the gate...}

SS and CP are now standing face to face.

Alter Ego:

BUUAHAHAAA!! I am finaly free from that hell hole!!!! I am going to make everyone cry, hurt and suffer just like you have been hurting and suffering for the past five years.

{SS grabs CP by the arm, tossed her into the cage and pushed down the lock.}

Alter Ego:

HEH!!! my wrath will start NOW.. It will start with you being in this cage. Being that little voice in the background. That little voice that I will most likely ignore..The same as you done to me FOR FIVE YEARS!! MUAHAH... It is my turn now!

ME:

How could you?? I let you out because I thought we could work together again. I thought you have changed but I was wrong, you are the same and maybe even worse than before.. Oh no, what have I done.. We are both no good and we will rot in hell.

Alter Ego:

Foolish wench!!! What gave you the idea that I have changed?? I will never change fool!!! The only thing that I have changed was my mind about working with you again. You have locked me away and now it is your turn to be locked up.... Ah but don't worry... I will show you how it is done, and if we both rot in hell... So be it...

ME: .....