Pete_Pistoleiro's Blog

I wanted to change up the mood of my blogs and blog about something that I myself have just started to look at from a different light.  In the past I never learned to count my blessings, I choose instead to dwell in my disasters.  But it took her leaving me to finally step back and see that I have become just like my father and I have no one to blame but myself.  So here is a rough draft of Being a Parent.
 

It seems like not so long ago that we where only kids playing around while our parents watched over us. Then with a blink of an eye we are the ones watching over our own kids. It all seemed like they only just came into our world and it was only yesterday when we first held them in our arms.

Growing old with them seemed like they never really changed......always that loving smile or the crazy way they show you how much they love you. Though now with time apart from my own kids I realize that they do change. I realize also of how lucky I really am to have their unconditional love welcome me to each and every day(I miss that). That’s the key right there, to know how lucky we are all to be touched with our own kids' lives. But as reality and the real world hits us we grow too accustomed to the privileges of having someone’s hopes and dreams hang on every single thing you do. So we forget or pretend that they don’t pay attention to everything we do and maybe, just maybe we can pretend that we do not have to be role models as well.

They say life catches up to us all but they fail to tell us that the things we do in life also catches up to our own children. With ever false promises or forgotten goodnight kisses, we shape our own kids' lives...and they remember. They remember the late nights waiting for you to come home. They remember all the broken promises of time together. They remember how much you never were around and they remember how lonely it really is in the dark. You may ask me how I know…well I know because I remember all those things too when I was a child.

So this is my vow to my two daughters.  One day we will be a family once more and I will never leave your side again.  See you two in my dreams till we meet again with you and your sister in my arms.  I love you...